Unconditional Love

We don't begin to understand what this means.
So let's begin - from the master kabbalist, Carlos Suares:

"An important postulate of the Yetsira is: Aleph with everything and everything with Aleph: Bayt with everything and everything with Bayt (or Vayt). Aleph being the timeless, unthinkable, eternal, or explosive Energy (or whichever word we wish to use for what evades all mental concepts) and Bayt (or Vayt) being any container in whatever form, shape vibration, undulation, ray, etc. . . that postulate means -- if I can use an obsolete, inadequate, but convienient set of words -- that everything that is, in whatever realm, is both "spirit" and "matter", or that there is no explosive Energy without compressive Energy, and reciprocally no structural drive without the opposite disintegrating drive. Thus everything that is, is considered by the Yetsira in terms of two co-ordinates, Aleph and Bayt. Where Bayt prevails powerfully, as in a piece of iron, Aleph is hopelessly in bondage; it cannot be active; in the biosphere Aleph operates; in the exalted mental emanation of a man made perfect, Aleph operates through time and space by means of so subtle mediums that they evade perception. So both Aleph and Bayt exist in different ranges from the inert to the very active. If by any chance one could have in oneself and be made of Aleph alive and Bayt alive, one would be in touch and commune with Aleph wherever it is and with the Bayts, whatever they are, therefore with everything that is. Aleph alive would be Aleph-Hay (Hay: 5 is the sign for life; when Abram is given the life of Aleph he becomes Abraham, with the corresponding added Hay -H in our writing) and Bayt alive would be Bayt-Hay. Therefore Aleph-Hay-Bayt-Hay would be in that person and that person would be in that schema, would be that schema in very truth. That schema, pronounced Ahavah, means LOVE in Hebrew! Its idiomatic meaning is desecrated, as is desecrated the word love everywhere in the world. The stupendous Aleph-Hay-Bayt-Hay was originally a cabalistic opening towards being at-one with all that is."

http://www.psyche.com/psyche/suares/cain2.html

Lucid Awareness

Lucid, from the latin lucere: to shine; lux: light; lucidus: full of light.

There's a lot of books on lucid dreaming so there's no need to cover that here.
But I would like to emphasize the similarities to lucid wakefulness.
A great place to start is to watch yourself fall asleep, trying to stay aware/awake
as the body goes into sleep paralysis. This is a great accomplishment when you
cross that veil, but even greater is to bring this ability, this watchfulness, into
your everyday life.
Watching your body fall asleep is an art, a matter of great skill and subterfuge.
The body won't sleep until it knows the mind is asleep - and of course we want
the mind to stay alert and watchful. So the mind has to pretend it is sleeping.
How do we achieve this?
First let's take care of the body. When falling asleep there are several things to
notice. First, there is a sleep breath. If you haven't noticed your own sleep breath
and you sleep with someone else, notice theirs and mimic it. You should of course
be relaxed as possible, and you may begin with some deep relaxing breaths, but
the sleep breath is not a deep inhalation at all, but quite brief.
As you find a gentle sleep breath rhythm, let your body relax and sink into your
bed or chair or whatever you are napping in. You are not going to move anything
for a while so find a comfortable position and don't cross your legs/ankles or arms;
but if your hands are comfortably resting one on the other, they are a good way to
feel the paralysis set in - often you won't know where one hand ends and the other
begins. This is a good sign to look for.
It is important to take care of the eyes. If you watch yourself fall asleep, there is an
eye position or focus that you'll notice. If you haven't seen this to mimic it, it is
sufficient to just keep your gaze still, perhaps focussed at the root/bridge of the nose.
I am not talking about REM eye patterns. We just want stillness. We want sleep
paralysis.
Then we want to deal with the mind. You want to be as free of thoughts as possible -
to be mentally quiet and still. This is mimicking a theta brainwave state which is
what we're after. So all we need from the mind is stillness and vigilance. If you use
visualisations, try to do so without talking to yourself about them.
With all this preparation, we are ready for sleep paralysis. Keep a relaxed breathing
rhythm, a quiet yet alert mind and relax your body completely... and be aware of the
body getting very heavy - so heavy you can't move any of it... like a blanket filled
with wet sand is laying over you.
And when your body is asleep and your mind is awake, this is a magical platform
for lucid dreaming, astral travel, healing and affirmations (communicating with the
subconscious mind).

After practicing this, and hopefully making a habit of it, you may begin to see that
there is no reason to drop your guard, to lose vigilance at any time during the day.
That same strong intention that kept the mind awake when your body fell asleep
can be used for mindfulness, presence, heightened awareness throughout the day.
That same intention and stealth can keep you from identifying with the past or
worrying about the future, or taking any moment for granted (going unconscious).
This can be more rewarding than lucid dreaming.
And if you learn not to lose yourself, you won't have any fear of death, for you will
be present for that too, even into the afterlife.

The way of love

Have you ever loved?
Have you ever been unable to stop thinking of someone?
Have you ever imagined you cannot live without your beloved?
It's true.
But perhaps you have not realised who the Eternal Beloved is.
Did you ever love from a distance?
Did you ever know the pain of love unreturned?
Did you ever worship a person that didn't even know you exist?
Then imagine how the Eternal Beloved dreams of embracing you.
Won't you gaze inward and behold the face of the One who dreamed you?
If you saw this face, you would never see anything else.
There is no other love.
All else is but an emanation of this Eternal Love.

Can you hear what I am saying?
This is not an abstraction!
Turn around without your face and see who sees from behind your eyes!
There is no Yoga (Union) but this.
Shiva and Shakti, face to face, lingam penetrating yoni, yoni receiving lingam.
Shivering Universe - can you feel it?!
Are you trembling?
This orgasm is unending!!

words

The words are concepts - we can argue the words, but they are only pointing to what
cannot be ex-pressed or conceptualised. Do not be fooled or taken or lost by the words.
It's what cannot be said that I am trying to say.

Everything must be verified by you. You must look for yourself.
My words are nothing compared to what you can do.
Seeing is the change; realisation comes with awareness.
Awareness is not caused by comprehension or understanding.
Your mind cannot reason this - it cannot be grasped.
The greatest poet cannot convey the sweetness of fruit like your own tongue.

"Burn your books and whiten your laton."
Why should I define "laton"?
If you look, it is obvious what must be whitened/calcined on the ashes of these books.

The homonculus is an empty shell of a human being. It is oneself stripped of all things,
all concepts, all time, all meaning... the black phase, the dark k/night.
And then, like the Frankenstein monster, it must be given new life.
We must breathe life into it - the spirit must descend upon it.
And from this spirit it must form a heart. The word is written on our hearts, not in books.
The words are your very heart-strings, your flesh and blood and sinew and bone...
let these be your words. Let the seeing of truth be its own action/verbum.

Do you see how we kill ourselves... we wash ourselves... we burn ourselves...
and a phoenix rises from the ashes.

the end of time

When the time loop/bubble pops - no time has passed and nothing has happened.
Such is the mystery of being born again, of entering your mother's womb.
Such is redemption and baptism from sin.
You are present, as if born of a virgin - not from sex, not the product of any pre-existing bodies...
The virgin birth is truly the death of the whore/image/idea of the seperate ego.
It is like waking from a dream.




The three in one. The tria prima "pop" dimensionally from unity as seen in
the tetrahedral image of triunity/trinity.

You

You are everything.
Realise the significance of being the microcosm - it's all you.
You are consciousness.
You are time.
You are dimension.

Let me say that another way for perspective.
You are not IN time. You ARE time.
You are not IN the cosmos. You ARE the cosmos.
You are not IN a dimension. You ARE the dimensions.

You do not achieve a state of now/presence;
you ARE now/presence, and everything issues from you/now/presence presently.

From now, one thinks of the past and future or "enters" the dimensions or alternate
states of awareness/consciousness. And all those things are you.
The now portal is you.
If you only become more deeply aware of yourself, you will simultaneously
become more aware of time, dimension, consciousness, "God", because these
are not other than you.

The "other than you" idea sets up an unnecessary struggle between you and the other,
be it time, dimension, consciousness, cosmos...
The idea of God, the idea of consciousness, of time, of dimension... all ideas...
the idea is an abstraction. You are the present reality. You are the direct
unmediated essential.

On Philosophy and Wonder

"Wonder is the feeling of a philosopher; and philosophy begins in wonder." - Plato

"Philosophy begins in wonder. And, at the end, when philosophic thought has done its best,
the wonder remains." - Alfred North Whitehead

"Philosophy, though unable to tell us with certainty what is the true answer to the doubts it
raises, is able to suggest many possibilities which enlarge our thoughts and free them from
the tyranny of custom. Thus, while diminishing our feeling of certainty as to what things are,
it greatly increases our knowledge as to what they may be; it removes the somewhat arrogant
dogmatism of those who have never traveled into the region of liberating doubt, and it keeps
alive our sense of wonder by showing familiar things in an unfamiliar aspect." - Bertrand Russell

"Any genuine philosophy leads to action and from action back again to wonder, to enduring

fact of mystery." - Henry Miller

"Science is what you know. Philosophy is what you don't know." - Bertrand Russell

I want to wake up

"I don't want to dream anymore. I want to wake up."

What is a dream?
"A series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily
in the mind during certain stages of sleep."

"A daydream; a reverie."

"A state of abstraction; a trance."

And how is that different from being awake?
Our common state is thinking, a state of abstraction (not "what is", presence),
a series of images occurring involuntarily in the mind.
One may argue that their thoughts are voluntary while awake. But if we are
honest, for every voluntary thought there are a dozen or more involuntary ones
that react to it. We are more asleep than we are awake.
The whole world is this way and no one seems to care.
We care about a thousand things, but no one is "occupying" any street or city
and demanding that we wake up from our dreams - the greatest conspiracy of
them all:




"Thinking is an impediment to experiencing; and there is no wisdom without
experiencing. Knowledge, idea, belief, stand in the way of wisdom. An occupied mind
is not free, spontaneous, and only in spontaneity can there be discovery. An occupied
mind is self-enclosing; it is unapproachable, not vulnerable, and therein lies its security.
Thought, by its very structure, is self-isolating; it cannot be made vulnerable. Thought
cannot be spontaneous, it can never be free. Thought is the continuation of the past, and
that which continues cannot be free." - J. Krishnamurti

Don't you see, when we use our thought/knowledge/past/images we are dreaming - the
ego, the imaginary construct of thought, the thinker, is dreaming for you. The Matrix
has you.

"You are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else you were born into bondage. Into a prison that
you cannot taste or see or touch. A prison for your mind."

"This is what happens with human beings. Our mind is a biological machine like a computer.
There is different information in every human being according to their experience. Each one
has learned differently from parents, society, school and religion. The information that we
put in our computer is what will teach us to dream. It tells us how to interpret what we perceive.
According to that information, we perceive the world and call it reality. This information is the
source of our limitations. We create images about ourselves and about everything else. We then
want to believe in those images. The process of putting the information in the computer is the
Domestication. We were domesticated in the same way that we domesticate dogs, by punishment
and reward... The dream of the planet, held by all of us, is the same. When we rise out of the
dream of the planet, and out of our own dream, we find that what we have thought of as truth is
nothing but information in our computer, and it can be easily changed." - Miguel Ruiz


Not only can you change information in your computer, but you can perceive in an entirely
different way, beyond the mechanical computer system of thought.
You can exchange one dream for another, decorating your prison cell differently - it is still a
prison. "Thought cannot be free."
Or you can leave the prison, get up and walk out of Plato's cave of reflected images and into
the sunlight.

"I don't want to dream anymore. I want to wake up."