the river of life

The river of life flows, if I may, from future to past.
Have you noticed?
The future hasn't happened yet; it is unknown.
The past already happened and is known.

Now if you look at the workings of the mind/ego, it always refers to
its knowledge (the known) and the past to define itself and the world.
It tries to row against the flow of the river of life, and some call that
'death', not living. Did you read 'Adam' below?
ADM 40 resists the flow of life.
ADM 600 receives the pregnant creativity of the unknown.

These are the two rivers/waters signified by M (Mem) and MIM (Mayim).
MIM means "waters". Notice there are two Ms: one at the beginning = 40,
and the M final = 600. And I (existence) in the middle of two waters/energies/flows.
This is our constant choice, the Pythagorean 'Y'.


"The wheel of time (river of life) is like a state of heightened awareness which is part of the other self, as the left side awareness is part of the self of everyday life. It can physically be described as a tunnel of infinite length and width; a tunnel with reflective furrows. Every furrow is infinite, and there are infinite numbers of them. Living creatures are compulsorily made, by the force of life, to gaze into one furrow. To gaze into it means to be trapped by it, to live that furrow.
Will belongs to the wheel of time. It is something like the runner of a vine, or an intangible tentacle which all of us possess. A warrior's final aim is to learn to focus it on the wheel of time in order to make it turn. Warriors who have succeeded in turning the wheel of time can gaze into any furrow and draw from it whatever they desire. To be trapped compulsorily in one furrow of time entails seeing the images of that furrow only as they recede. To be free from the spellbinding force of those grooves means that one can look in either direction, as images recede or as they approach." - Castaneda, "The Eagle's Gift"


What is it to be a warrior? To have will? In hebrew Mars is spelled MADIM.
Do you see the two waters/Ms? Adam in the waters of life, the river of life with
two directions/choices:
1) The past resists by constructing known structures of identity/ego which give one security and comfort.
2) The future welcomes the unknown unstructured creative flow of a pregnant universe.

The will/martial force is distributed among two of the zodiac - aries (fire sign) and scorpio (water sign).


ADM is evolving/living and perfected when he faces the East/QDM where the new dawn arises,
where spring/aries begins.
A = 1
Q = 100

God placed the cherubim and the flaming sword in the east of the garden after "evicting" Adam
and Eve, to guard the way to the tree of life. Do you see the significance?